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OVERCOMING ABANDONMENT & FINDING ACCEPTANCE is the theme of this month’s guidance message from my Divine Family of teachers.
Many of us have deep seated abandonment issues from
childhood where we may have felt abandoned physically, emotionally or psychologically.
We may be unconsciously repeating this pattern in our relationships and friendships.
Bringing awareness to this helps us to move on to healthier relationships.
Abandonment can also stall us on our spiritual path because we often feel abandoned by God, our Divine Source. This is not true. It is impossible to be abandoned by God. We are one with God and God is one with us. In the moments when we feel abandoned, we cry out and accuse God of leaving us, but this very act pushes us away from our living, breathing, never-ending connection to Him. Instead we can accept what is happening, surrender to that and ask for help to reconnect, so we can feel God’s love, guidance and protection when we need it most, always, without fail.
God, your Divine Teachers and your spiritual guides are with you always. You are never abandoned.
LIVE YOUR TRUTH is the core of this message from the Divine Light on Resurrecting Yourself.
Take charge of your dreams and your vision for your life, drop your ideas of having to suffer, and become a shining, loving presence in this world.
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BE THE HIGHEST, BRIGHTEST YOU is at the heart of Easter Saturday’s channelled message from Mary Magdalene on Resurrecting Yourself.
Step into the All and all you are. Let this be as natural as a rose reaching up to the sun. Simply be.
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WALK BACK TO GOD is the theme of Good Friday’s beautiful channelled message from Jesus on Resurrecting Yourself. Take to your path, led by your soul, following love, and love yourself back to God.
Ask yourself now – which way are you walking?
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RESURRECT YOURSELF is the theme of this month’s guidance video from my Divine Family. As we approach Easter it’s important to remember that the focus is meant be on the resurrection not the crucifixion, that Jesus wanted to show us we are these eternal souls beyond the body, that we are these Beings Of Light and that we can Be our Divine Selves here and now as he did.
In the video we share three steps for resurrecting yourself now. We all go through moments of deep pain and trauma that can feel like crucifixions. I know this from my own life and my heart attacks. But we all have the power to heal this pain, make new choices and resurrect ourselves into a life led by our souls, by the Divine within us. And we all have the power to make that new choice right now.
I will be sharing more channelled video messages over Easter weekend from Jesus, Mary Magdalene and the Divine Light on the theme of resurrecting yourself.
Good Friday – a message from Jesus on walking back to God.
Easter Saturday - a message from Mary Magdalene on being the highest, brightest you.
Easter Sunday – a message from the Divine Light on living your truth.
I will post these videos here and on my public Facebook page each morning.
I’ll also share them on my YouTube channel later each day. Don't forget you can subscribe to my YouTube channel if you want to hear instantly when new videos are added.
Remember you have the power to make a new choice, and even in the midst of pain and confusion, you can change your life now.
This month’s monthly guidance message from my Divine Teachers looks at relationships - how to bring the sacred and divine into relationships, moving beyond romantic love to a deeper love, a reflection on twin soul relationships and a reminder that self love is the basis for all love.
As a poet, writer and spiritual teacher, I strive to be an illuminating, dissenting voice that invites others to think differently and freely.
I never felt this freedom when I was growing up. I was born into the Troubles and all I learnt was to keep quiet, keep my head down and keep out of trouble. I never felt I had spiritual freedom either. Everything I did was defined by my Catholic upbringing – not just how I approached my spiritual life but everything from where I went to school, to what shops I shopped in, where I went clubbing and how I was expected to vote. We were all defined and confined by the religious label attached to us. The spiritual dimension of our lives became contaminated by societal expectations and political baggage.
In a recent article Eammon O’Malley said our society is crying out for humanity and hope. I agree with him. I found my hope in an unexpected way.
At 43 I had two heart attacks in a week. Before my heart attacks I spent my life trying to do the right thing - getting the right job, the right home, the right relationship. But inside I felt empty, deadened. I was a robot going through the motions.
But during my second heart attack I had a moment of epiphany that changed my life. I knew I could choose to close my eyes and go - because I knew without doubt that my body might ‘die’ but ‘I’ would go on; ‘I’ would continue to exist somewhere else, in some other form. But I also knew that whatever I’d come here for, I hadn’t done it yet. In that moment, I faced death and chose to live.
I was no longer afraid of dying. I was afraid of not living. I set out on a journey of sanity to heal myself, transform my life and live a life I had chosen, not a life someone else had chosen for me. I stopped listening to all the voices around me. I stumbled onto my spiritual path.
I also learnt a more practical lesson during my two weeks in the cardiac ward. As the cardiologists struggled to figure out what was wrong with me, I learnt that medical ‘science’ is not about absolutes. No two bodies are identical. At 2am one morning a doctor told me my pain was ‘absolutely, categorically’ not coming from my heart. By 6am doctors were panicking around me as I was in the middle of my second heart attack. I removed the words ‘absolutely’ and ‘categorically’ from my vocabulary.
Prior to this my relationship to God had been founded on my religious upbringing, and my place in the world defined by what I was expected to do. Now I found myself going on a much more personal journey. I started meditating and turning within me. I started to have my own living, breathing experience of something ‘more’ that can’t be defined by or confined in words. And I realised it is irrelevant whether you call that ‘more’ God, the Divine, the Universe, universal energy, the All, Allah, Krishna, the Light, Creator, Love…
I connected with many people from different backgrounds and walks of life who refuse to be solely defined by other people’s labels, who share this vision for taking personal responsibility for changing themselves, and approach the world from a heart centred place.
Like me, they have found that in order to live an authentic life, you need to have your own inner experiences and be guided by the truth you find within you.
I had long since lost faith in politicians but now that I was steering clear of absolutes, I found myself stepping further away from the whole political arena.
We are at a strange time in the world with the election of Trump, Brexit and our elections making many feel powerless. After coming through a peace process that made us feel we could take back power, we are starting to feel we have no control.
I will of course vote and strongly encourage everyone else to vote, in order to have their voice heard, and to clearly show how they feel about the status quo, I am not waiting for those in Stormont to come and change my life. I am not waiting for them to heal the wounds of the past. I am taking self-responsibility for what I do and the presence I am in this world and I will not let myself be held back waiting for the politicians to change. I don’t believe we will find this humanity and hope through our politicians. We must find it and create it for ourselves. So vote, then ask yourself what can you do in your community and circle of friends to let someone feel that humanity and hope.
We need to remember we have all the power we need within us - the power to change ourselves, the power to change things in our sphere of influence, the power to be that illuminating, dissenting voice and presence that invites others to think and live differently and freely.
This is why I’ve started to organise gatherings called ‘And My Stone Heart Beats’ - a series of Silent Meditation-Prayer-Healing events that are planned across NI in 2017. These are gatherings of people of all beliefs and no beliefs to come together in community to send positive energy and healing into areas that have seen pain and tragedy.
These gatherings are about our shared humanity, about what happens when we stop looking at the differences, stop letting political, religious, gender, race or any label keep us separate and divided, and come together with a common aim – to change the energy, heal, reclaim our power and move on.
We have transformed so much; we have healed so much. But many of us still carry the emotional distress of our troubled past inside our hearts and still need to deeply and fully heal. Everyone of my generation personally know people who were killed or injured during the Troubles. We still carry the scars.
Our country carries the scars too. I believe that just as the emotional energy can get blocked in the body, so the energy in an area can get blocked. Just as your heart can turn to stone if you’ve been deeply hurt, the heart of a place can turn to stone. Sometimes it feels like the past is still hanging in the air – both as a haunting memory and as a dense energy full of heartache. But that heaviness can be lifted, that energy can move again, breathing life back into a place. It’s a shedding of skins to get to the purity underneath.
If we want true and deep change then we need to make that change – both deep within ourselves and in the energy and world around us. We don’t need to wait for the politicians. We don’t need others to do it for us. We don’t need others to give us permission. We can create that change.
That’s why I’m calling people to come together, to be still, to create a transcendent, sacred space together, a space where hearts are opened and magic can happen - regardless of who sits in Stormont. They are not the ones who will lead the real change. We are.
A gathering of people of all beliefs and no beliefs close to the peaceline in East Belfast, to send positive energy and healing into the area.
In Valentines week, we will create a pattern that symbolises love and Oneness together made out of stones. Bring a stone of your choice then place it where you feel guided, as we create this beautiful pattern together.
Then we will gather around our co-created pattern and sit for half an hour in silence to meditate/pray/send out positive intentions/visualise/whatever each individual would like to do.
Visual artist Bronagh Lawson will be guiding us as we shape and create our beautiful pattern.
7pm - 8pm: – place your stone where you feel guided as we create our pattern of love and oneness together.
- write your hopes, dreams and intentions if you wish to, and we will hang these as an installation in the space. Poet Maria McManus will be on hand to help and inspire.
- grab a cuppa while you think.
8pm - 8.30pm – we will gather around the symbolic pattern we have created together, and sit for half an hour in silence, perhaps with some calming music, sending out positive energy and healing in whatever way we choose to.
8.30 - 9pm – as you leave you can choose to take a stone with you, a connection to another person, a reminder of our connection to one another.
We are calling for a 100 people to come together. If you’re joining us, you can grab your free ticket at Eventbrite.
Please share and invite friends.
This is the first in a series of gatherings throughout 2017.
Huge thanks to poet Maria McManus, artist Bronagh Lawson and healer and artist Michelle Grattan for supporting this event.
Venue: St Martin’s Church (deconsecrated), 88 Newtownards Rd, Belfast, BT4 1GW
Date: Friday 17th February
Time: 7pm – 9pm
St Martin’s is very close to the bottom of the Newtownards Road, at the city centre end. It is across the road from St Matthews church in the Short Strand and down towards town a little. It’s a small red brick building nestled behind a business park. Watch for our signs outside.
For more info contact Deirdre Cartmill on firstname.lastname@example.org
Reclaim your vision and power, relax into life’s ebb and flow and bring all of you into this moment. This is the first inspiring monthly guidance message from my Divine Teachers.
This is a year for community and leadership, for living your vision, and empowering yourself.
Every day throughout December I’ll be sharing a beautiful, inspirational channelled message on my Facebook page - www.facebook.com/deirdrecartmill
These are messages of joy, peace and love and they’re from a book called 31 Ways To Happiness. They are an antidote to the confusion in the world and in our souls.
Check out the introductory video on my Facebook page for more on these messages and my journey to here, after suffering two heart attacks in a week at 43.
You are worthy, you are divinely loved, and you have a special gift to share. You can hold a new vision for yourself and for the world. Travel with me every day throughout December and take a small step each day back to the true you.
Awakening is both beautiful and terrifying at the same time. It’s hard to accept the Divine Love coming your way, the ever-changing energy, the talents and abilities you have, the role you are here to play.
You are being called on to open up to your full potential and to heal all your deep wounds. It takes courage.
What keeps us going? The moments of being flooded with love, of feeling deep joy and peace, of that deep stillness and peace in our hearts gradually becoming the norm.
The fear often stops us taking the first step – but we must feel the fear and do it anyway, as the alternative is continuing to live in a deadened life that ossifies our heart and soul.
There are two main fears we all face. Fear No.1 is feeling we are unworthy – unworthy of the Divine Love, unworthy of the natural gifts that are ours. We must remember we are worthy, we are deeply loved by the Divine and we have been given our special, unique gifts to help transform this world.
Fear No. 2 is that we must change. Yes, we must. But what we forget is that this change will be a gradual day by day change, step by step, breath by breath. You will not be forced to upturn your life overnight. You will not be forced to do anything ever! What will happen is that you will gradually begin to make new choices that lead to a gradual enhancement of all you are.
Awakening is simply returning to our natural state and realising that the state we currently live in is completely unnatural. Awakening is remembering – remembering the truth beyond our conditioning. It is remembering that we are meant to live in conscious awareness of our living, breathing connection with our Divine Source, and to feel this two-way flow of Love in every moment.
It’s an emotional seesaw as you flit from your spiritual life to your ‘real’ human life - until you realise they are all one life and you stop beating yourself up about not being perfect in every second. Accept the ebb and flow. It’s simply about being a truer version of you today than you were yesterday. It does get easier.
You will go through a phase of withdrawing from crowds and spending more time on your own. This is a time of introspection and self-care. It can also be a time of connecting fully with your inner Divine family.
Calling on our Divine family for help makes the path so much easier – calling on God, calling on our Divine teachers such as Jesus, Mary, Mary Magdalene, Buddha, Melchizedek and so many others, calling on our own spiritual guides, angels and archangels.
Remember we are returning to flow, peace, joy, Love and Light.
Our true resurrection is rising up out of the deadened half-life we are living into the Divine beings of Light and Love we truly are, and learning how to express this Divine True Self in this world.
It will be a rollercoaster ride. But isn’t it better to be alive than dead?
The choice is always yours…
We have this notion that enlightenment is a state we will click into one day and from then on we can just sit back and rest on our laurels. But enlightenment is actually an ongoing moment to moment choice to live in and from the Light – the Light that resides within you.
This is good news. This means that right now we can start to make this choice in each moment. It also means there have probably been many moments, however fleeting, when you were enlightened and living from the light. Think of those moments in meditation when everything clicked, those moments you felt a deep and living connection with something more, the moments of bliss, the moments you surprised yourself by acting like a much better version of you.
If we’ve done it before, we can do it again. We can finally ditch any notions that we are unworthy and not good enough to do it, as we’ve been there already. We can become more consistent in it and learn how to make this choice always.
It also means we can drop any notions that we have to wait to be enlightened in order to live in our oneness with God. If we open up to God now, open our hearts and surrender to this living, breathing oneness, then our Divine Source can guide us towards our enlightenment and teach us how make this an ongoing moment to moment experience.
It can all be so much easier. It is all meant to be so much easier. Sometimes it seems easier to hold onto the misinformation we’ve been taught as it lets us off the hook of having to change.
The truth is it is our choice. The truth is our loving Source and so many other Divine beings are by our side ready to help us if we let them. The truth is all it takes is a decision – and to keep on making the same decision over and over. Choose the Light.
I have a driving force in me that will cut through anything, that will get the job done no matter what. This power and drive helps me accomplish a lot. I have another side of me that embraces the sacred, that will sit in the bliss of meditation and simply surrender.
Now I’m learning how to combine the two because if I’m in one state and not the other the effect is diminished. The driving force will let me do what is necessary - but if I get up on a cross and do not sit in the sacredness, the act becomes pointless and devoid of meaning. If I sit in sacred space but never use it to accomplish sacred action it is equally wasted.
We need to bring these two sides of us together to work in beautiful harmony. This does not mean denying either side of this beautiful balance. When we are driven and powerfully doing, we need to simultaneously sit in the sacredness. Everything can become a sacred act – sacred breathing, sacred listening, sacred speaking, sacred being… Everything is changed and becomes sacred work.
There is a passion at the centre of this that we have been taught to deny. But there is a reason we call it the Passion of the Christ. There is a reason we use words like ecstasy, bliss and the Rapture to try to talk about our communion with our Source. This rapture, passion, joy is in our hearts when we experience our oneness with our true Beloved – our Divine Source. This passion is needed to get us to that oneness, to let our hearts rip open to this love. And when it is done in the purity of sacredness it is utterly powerful.
When we join our sacredness and our power in a passionate union we are an unstoppable force for good.
I know I’m only touching the edges of this understanding and experience. I can’t wait for it to deepen.
Many of us have experienced the void in one way or another, whether it’s feelings of deep loss, grief and emptiness in the physical or encountering the emptiness in meditation. Maybe right now you’re in the middle of this painful experience.
But what the void really is, is a feeling or belief that we have become disconnected from God, that our Divine Source has turned from us. But it’s not true. God has not disconnected from us. It’s as if we’ve accidentally turned off the wifi, and once we realise this, we can turn it back on again.
The truth is we can never be disconnected from God. God is within us. God is emitting from every part of us. God is us. When we are in that darkness, we need to turn back to that knowing that God is with us and within us.
I remember the first time I encountered the void in meditation. I was in a very deep state of meditation and knew I was about to encounter God – then I found myself in this dark void, this black emptiness. It was horrific. Every part of me screamed out is this it?
Luckily it only took me a few seconds to feel the potential for all creation rising up from what initially wrongly seemed like black emptiness, and then I saw that this potentiality for creation was God. When that knowing came I quickly moved beyond the darkness to a greater Light. My greatest lesson was in that moment - that dark emptiness is just as much God as the Light is.
When we really understand that this dark emptiness is just as much God as the Light is, then we don’t expect this darkness to be devoid of God. We don’t expect it to be a place where God cannot be. We look around the darkness and see God standing there with us. And we let Him/Her take our hand and lead us home.
I have had so many dark nights of the soul over my lifetime. I have been on my knees wailing in pain at a loss in the physical world. In meditation I have felt my body arching in pain, and felt like my heart and gut were being ripped out of my body, as I unshackled myself from layers of illusion that some part of me desperately wanted to hold onto.
My last dark night of the soul was last night. It was only then that I truly, truly came to understand that the dark emptiness is just as much God as the Light is – because my pain arose from the undeniable knowing that God is and has always been with me, that God loves me and has always loved me. I saw the unnecessary pain I had caused myself and I wept as I let the illusions go. I truly understood that everything I’d ever needed had always been with me and within me. I knew God’s love had been with me and within me always.
If you’re still in doubt think of Jesus on the cross. He may have momentarily felt alone, felt God had abandoned him - but do any of us doubt for a second that God was more fully with him in that moment than ever.
There is no place that God is not. God is in the darkness as well as the light. God is always and always will be with us. Let go and let God.
Who am I? This should be the easiest question for us to answer but when we’re asked this most of us respond with our roles – mother, teacher, brother, friend, shop assistant, footballer, healer.
If we’re telling the truth the answer would be scared, lonely, confused, feeling unloved and unworthy, lost. That’s certainly how I felt before my heart attacks.
But we all have this deep knowing inside us that tells us we are more, that this life was not supposed to be like this. We tell ourselves that if only we’d had a better start in life, if only that thing hadn’t happened to me, if my parents had been richer, kinder, sober then my life would have been so different.
The good news is it doesn’t matter what’s happened up until this moment – because right in this moment you can step out of the roles, step out of the shadows of the past, and step forward into the true you that’s waiting to burst forth from you.
The true you, that inner presence that you feel and know in those quiet moments, is not affected by these external things in your life. The true you that you’ve kept buried deep inside you is eternally beautiful, perfect, divinely unique and vitally important. The true you is special and needed in this world.
So how do you find this true self? The first step is to turn inside yourself; stop and look inwards. Just stop and be. Stop in the busyness. Stop listening to the voices around you. And when you go into the silence inside you, listen to that voice that is whispering to you, telling you what you dreamt of being, reminding you of what used to make you smile, assuring you that you can do all you know you are here to do.
Welcome to yourself. Listen to it. Let it guide you. Follow the passion of your soul and it will help you remember who you truly are. It will help you escape the drudgery and see clearly again. It will lead you back to peace, joy and love, back to your Divine Source, and to the Divinity that resides within you.
Who am I? Only you know the answer. Take courage. Listen. Believe. Start to live it now in this breath. Know you truly are a beautiful soul and can express this beauty here and now in this world, the moment you choose to.